A Year Ago
April 7, 2013 § 23 Comments
In Zen we do not look back- or forward. There’s just this moment, here and now.
But today, I consciously step out of that way.
Exactly one year ago yesterday, I posted here for the first time. No idea what would come of this. Doubted whether anyone would ever actually read what I wrote. Wondered if I would stick with it.
Unsure, doubtful, hesitant.
A year later. Still moments of doubt, still times when I drift away. But of this I am sure- the writing I have done here, and the connections that have arisen for me here, have enriched my life beyond measure.
I am in this work. I can feel myself in the passages. I feel also the presence of those who’ve come here. We have opened ourselves to each other. A vibrant and shared intimacy tumbles through these pages.
I should not feel pride, I know. But I do. A year ago, I took a step, hesitant and unsure. And then I plunged. Good for me.
I feel also a nearly overwhelming sense of gratitude- for the work, for the exquisite souls with whom I’ve stood here, for life itself.
And so in this moment, right here, right now, I feel the peace of the journey.